Writable Wednesday

still got 1 1/2 days to go before cuti raya...can't wait ! well smlm revealed everything bout him and his stranged perangai. i called him at around 7 since i bukak puasa with Naimah @ Bukit Kiara Resort. then he texted me saying klo kuar ngan kawan ok jer, but kuar ngan dia and sepupu tak boleh. when i told him i mmg tak fit ngan sepupu dia, i ni sombong, mmg tak padan langsung ngan dia.. terus dia kol saying sorry. malas nk layan. then balik ofis dia nak jumper.

i terus jer said  tu him yang i nie mmg sombong bla bla bla.... dia pulak yang sudah2 la tu...sorry...sorry naik jer la lori gdex tu kan banyak!  i pun aper lagik... ckp jer laa yg dia at first janji nak kuar with me alone, then suddenly ajak cousin dia. he said he already have it arranged. this week all of us, next week just the two of us, yeah, rite!

i told him straight that when he didnt pickup the phone and no text to me, i started to think the worst which had happened last time, then he quickly No! No!,, jgn pikir camtu. walaupun kita gaduh, is still rindu kat lnda...is sayang lnda walaupun apa jadik.. at that time, aku da start meleh air mata da... terus dia jangan la camni, naper ngangis ni...... sebab you la i jadik camni! 

masa nak balik siap pesan, nnt sampai msg.. bila sampai umah terus bersayang2 bagai dalam msg. sayang itu la, sayang ini laa.. huhhh!!! siap kol lagik tu tnya wat aper, da mandi ker, jagan luper mandi.. bye sayang. then dia ada kol around 11, but i was in the shower, pastu hntr msg dah tido ker, tak per la, nite sayang! mum was so worried when me and him fight, she will like asking me where is he, da pegi keje ker, msg tak, kol tak bla bla bla. siap mama sound lagi, dia da la manja, k.cik pun manja gak...kene beralah laa... orang da beralah k, klo tak takkan la sampai 45 kali orang kol dia.

apa pun, sekarang dalam proses nak cool off... amek masa sket me to be like before. slalu mmg camtu...

k la, daa.....

Tricky Tuesday

Ari Ahad supposingly bukak puasa ngan dia but then dia kol ajak bukak puasa ngan sepupu dia + wife. tak minat sbb dia gak yang komplen x pnh dpt bukak puasa sama but then ajak orang lain lak join. da merajuk da time tu. satu msg dia berjam2 kemudian baru hntr balik satu.

then mlm tu dlm kol 11 baru balik terawih ngan mama and kebetulan mama tak cukup duit nk beli satu buku nih kat surau, dia ternampak dia baru balik. (tu pun ada hati nk ajak ikut sama..huh) dia g laa pnjm kat dia, tapi tak ckp apa2 pun lebih dari tu. balik umah kol dia pun dia da tido. fine!

then, on Monday tried to call him since everyday i will call him and we will go and buy food at bazaar ramadhan but he didnt pickup my call (45 times - must be a damn record) and i started to feel funny bout that. even during bukak puasa pun dia tak der msg. when i came back from terawih, he sent me a msg saying that he already reached the office. when i asked him what's wrong with him he just said he's not in the mood. nice one kan??

today, saw him when i was on my way to the guard house, he saw me too but both pretended didn't see each other. how kewl is that? then tried to call him around 9.00 but once  again, no avail, no luck. Fine! If he wanted it to be like that,so be it. I even texted him telling him i already tranferred his money.

sgt takut sekarang ini sbb dia penah buat perangai camni dulu and in the end kitawang putus and dia tunang ngan orang lain. the feeling and the situation rite now is exactly during that moment... Ya Allah! jgan duga aku macam dulu lagi, tak mampu rasanya aku nk menanggungnya Ya Allah.

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